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Reimi Sugimoto ⬤ JJBA: Diamond Is Unbreakable
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[doreimi]

You were never in the way, Mista. And you're still not.

...Anyway, believe me when I say that I know how that felt, that loneliness. I remember years and years of just...watching everybody living their lives around me, and no one ever saw me. I remember being angry. I know...maybe they're not the exact same feelings, but I understand those feelings.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, you're wrong that they're not important. And that I don't want to be someone who makes you feel invisible and left out.

[grilletto]

ah yeah
that's probably another reason not to complain
everyone else has it worse when it comes to this shit
i'm not even sure it's the invisible thing that bothers me
i just don't want to be alone, i guess

if you think i'm not in the way
i'll accept it
even if i'm pretty sure being part of a weird kiss party
is kind of on the borderline
and the more i think about it i'm still not sure i get why you were okay kissing both of us
because i was being a shitty baby, you and i both know it
and i don't want you to think that you owe me anything
we're friends but it's not your job to make me happy
i just hope you know that
i mean it's my job to make sure you're safe
but that's something totally different

[ he wants to ask something outright, but he hesitates before sending another message ]

i'm sorry i have to ask
are you guys like
together now?
like together together?

[doreimi]

It's not like it's a competition. I'm saying I understand your feelings, not that mine are more important than yours.

But you know...this place, it's not really like home, is it? I mean, where there were rules about how things worked. You go to school and graduate and have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, you get married and have a house and kids and a job...that's not how any of this works. I kissed both of you because I wanted to, and because you wanted me to do it, too. In a place like this...I think that's enough.

But yeah. We're together together.

[grilletto]

yeah i figured you guys were
he’s always meant a lot to you
so i get it

you know
it’s stupid but i thought coming here
after all the shit we went through back home
that this was a second chance or something
that maybe i could just have life again
without everything getting too complicated

i really don’t know what i was thinking

[doreimi]

I think you can. Just have a life, I mean. But...I also think that it's not something that's just handed to you, either.

Back when I first got here, I sat still for a long time, thinking, "What's the point? This isn't real, and the next time I blink I'll be back home and bound for Heaven. Why should I bother living? My life stopped sixteen years ago."

You and the others were the ones who shook me out of that. You're the ones who made me believe I should try. So...I don't think it's stupid, to feel that way. But that's why I think you should try, too.

[grilletto]

glad i could be part of what helped
even if i was pretty lame about that other stuff

thanks, seriously