You know, it's really pretty there. And not just that, but...
I mean. We've got the apartment in Lunatia and the house in Amegahara, too. But even if someone showed up looking for us, no one would think to find us in Lyestellus, would they?
You don't think it's stupid, do you? To...feel this way? I mean, it's not like this year is different from any other year. Except, I guess, that...this year I know who it was in the house that night. And why he picked me. And...
...He was third chair violin. We were in the same music club, I was second. Yumiko-senpai was first, but that — I mean, that doesn't matter.
She and I used to get in trouble because we liked to wear nail polish. You're not supposed to, when you play the violin. He was kind of stuffy and old-fashioned about it, he said it was unprofessional. Because it was flashy, and drew attention to your hands, instead of to the music they were playing.
He used to sit in club and...sometimes, he'd stare at me. But he was just creepy Kira-senpai, weird and everything but...harmless. Because it's not a crime to be weird.
But that's what he did. He was staring at my hands. When we were all in club...that's why.
There was a minute, once, when I thought...you know, maybe if I'd listened, if I'd taken off the nail polish, maybe it wouldn't have been me.
But then I thought, but if it wasn't me then it would've been someone else. It would've been Yumiko-senpai or Miyuki-chan or Ami-chan. There would've been someone else.
When I think about it like that...then I think it's almost better that it was me.
I mean - maybe, maybe not. Maybe it makes no difference what you did or didn't do. But, if not you, certainly someone else. He was going to do it regardless, because that was how he was.
And you know, because of your help: now it will be no one else.
[ While he wants to argue that it isn't better that it was her instead of someone else, he's sure she'll disagree with him, so he doesn't even bother trying. He's not going to take away what she gave up. ]
But if I weren't up for it, you'd know by now. I certainly wouldn't have suggested a trip. And, besides, I wouldn't ask you to try to do this on your own or with anyone else.
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You know, it's really pretty there. And not just that, but...
I mean. We've got the apartment in Lunatia and the house in Amegahara, too. But even if someone showed up looking for us, no one would think to find us in Lyestellus, would they?
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Since we were going to stay out of our places anyway, I thought maybe something nice would be nice.
And I want you to feel safe, of course.
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Hey, um.
You don't think it's stupid, do you? To...feel this way? I mean, it's not like this year is different from any other year. Except, I guess, that...this year I know who it was in the house that night. And why he picked me. And...
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I don't know if it's better or worse to know who he is and why he picked you. I can't know and I won't ask you to tell me if you don't want to.
I think it's fine to be afraid. What he did was terrible. And I --
Only care if you feel safe. That's all I want.
[ He knows if he could remember it, he'd feel similarly. ]
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She and I used to get in trouble because we liked to wear nail polish. You're not supposed to, when you play the violin. He was kind of stuffy and old-fashioned about it, he said it was unprofessional. Because it was flashy, and drew attention to your hands, instead of to the music they were playing.
He used to sit in club and...sometimes, he'd stare at me. But he was just creepy Kira-senpai, weird and everything but...harmless. Because it's not a crime to be weird.
But that's what he did. He was staring at my hands. When we were all in club...that's why.
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But then I thought, but if it wasn't me then it would've been someone else. It would've been Yumiko-senpai or Miyuki-chan or Ami-chan. There would've been someone else.
When I think about it like that...then I think it's almost better that it was me.
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And you know, because of your help: now it will be no one else.
[ While he wants to argue that it isn't better that it was her instead of someone else, he's sure she'll disagree with him, so he doesn't even bother trying. He's not going to take away what she gave up. ]
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I'll feel safe if you stay with me. I'm sure about that.
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I mean, I don't have anywhere else I'd like to be. Not on that date, especially. Whatever you need, alright? Because it's for you.
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I know it's a lot to ask. Keeping me safe from phantoms and bad memories for a whole day. Hey...do you think you're up to it?
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But if I weren't up for it, you'd know by now. I certainly wouldn't have suggested a trip. And, besides, I wouldn't ask you to try to do this on your own or with anyone else.