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Miss Sugimoto, I have a very personal question that I want to ask you. And it might

It's probably going to be very emotional, so please don't feel like you have to answer until you're prepared for that sort of thing. But I need to see what I can do, so I have to ask you when you're ready.

A...personal question? Um, sure, okay...

I guess let me hear what it is and I'll tell you if I need some time to answer it or not?

Of course! I would've asked already, but I wanted to give you the chance to say no if you weren't interested at all, haha.

I've become aware of your circumstances. While this doesn't change the fact that you are Reimi Sugimoto, a vibrant and incredibly intelligent young lady who I'm honoured to know, I also have some circumstances of my own that might allow me to avoid them altogether for you. But I need information to do so.

What year and date did you pass away?

You...want to know the day I died? Well, sure, I guess, it was August 13, 1983.

But what are you talking about, "avoid them altogether"? That's not possible...is it? Since it's already happened?

[There's a good ten minute pause before Avdol manages to reply, during which he does very violent things to every pillow and cushion he can come across. This isn't fair! 6 years...Only 6 years too late. He could've saved her if he wasn't 6 years too late, and she could grow up and have a family--

But the tantrum allows him to scrape the worst of his emotions off before he does reply. Reimi doesn't deserve to see him being a mess about her trauma.]

...It might have been, if I didn't come from January 16, 1989. I apologise for getting your hopes up like that, Miss Sugimoto. For everyone else, I'm from their past, so if I went home with the knowledge I have from here, I could change everything. I could save my friends from home who pass on after I do, and I was desperately hoping that I could've been in time to save you too.

I can't apologise enough for not being able to help you. I'm so sorry. For bringing this up, only to not be able to help...I didn't mean to waste your time or bring up something like this for nothing. I'm so sorry.

...You've been talking to Niichan, haven't you. Abbacchio, I mean. He was so upset about that the other night...

I don't even remember what I was doing, six years into being a ghost. I remember the first year pretty well, I think. The second was worse. I'm sure by the sixth I was starting to lose count, and I wasn't even halfway through with the number of years I'd have to wait yet.

But is that your plan, then? To go home and find Niichan and save him from what happens?

Yes, I didn't exactly handle that conversation with as much grace as I should have; that was my fault.

It's strange, to think about how the world is so big. 6 years into your ghosthood, my friends and I were-- are-- hm. It's messy, time. I wish it was all easier, so that I didn't have to wonder about what my actions are going to do. And also so that I could just slip through it neatly and pull you with me! That would be nice.

I'm not just saving Leone, though. He's my main reason for doing this, of course; I don't have a plan after I find him and help him and the others. But I want to help everyone I possibly can. I'm going to save my friends, and I'm going to end things like I should have. Then I'm going to train more so that I'm strong enough, even when I'm in my 40s, so I can be useful. Maybe in Morioh, if there's any way I could help otherwise. Then in Italy.

I think the only thing that your coming to Morioh would do for me is that I would go to heaven faster. That's what happens when my killer is found. I don't need to stay anymore, so I'm free to go.

But it would help other people, to catch him sooner. He had more victims than just me. I was just the first. I don't know who they were, really, but I'm sure it would make a difference to them. I accepted a long time ago that it's too late for me...and I made a choice that night that made all the difference for someone else. Maybe that's enough.

I couldn't do much, but I saved one person. That's something, isn't it?

If his other victims were at all like you, then I'd like to help them too.

Miss Sugimoto, being able to help one person is definitely more than enough. Every person has their own universe tucked away inside of them, and you preserved one with your goodness. That's something to be very, very proud of; it's very easy to panic in situations where your life is on the line, trust me.

Thank you for answering my questions so honestly. I know it can't have been easy, and I'm sorry again for how draining this conversation must be for you. Any way I can make it up to you?

They were all girls like me. They died in different ways, after he got his Stand. But the motive was the same, always, too.

You can keep a secret for me, if you want. That would make it up to me, I think.

Consider him dealt with, then. I won't abide a man like that to keep living, you have my word.

And even if I didn't owe you a debt, I'd readily keep any secret you trusted me with. But especially now, yes.

Niichan has pictures of both of his faces. I gave them to him a few months ago, just in case he ever shows up here. So that if he does something, Niichan and Moody Blues can find him. He can show them to you, too.

Anyway...a few other people know this, but I want you to know it too. When that monster killed me, he...he wasn't very good at it. It wasn't...quick, or clean, is what I mean. So my back, when it's Cordis and I end up with wings, and I can't cover my back...

There are scars there. Awful ones. I try not to show anybody, if I can help it, but I'm trying to be like Niichan and be braver about letting people see them, too.

Good. Between everyone gathered here who loves you...I think this man wouldn't stand a chance! Or even 5 seconds here, if it ever came down to it.

Maybe I'm a little biased on this matter, Miss Sugimoto; both my affection for you and my own scars make me say that scars are a sign of strength. But I understand that they're not easy to show; people stare, people ask questions, and you're thrown back into times that you don't want to revisit, even if you're braver now.

Would you still like to hide them until you're ready? Are these scars between your wings? I could maybe try to modify something to sit over and between your wings, but still be lightweight to not hurt you. If you'd like. If not, I understand!

Yeah...the wings make it hard because they're all over my back. The scars, I mean. I guess maybe something could sit between them and on either side, but it'd take some real effort...shirts aren't really made like that, you know?

I'm getting better about them, really I am. It's just hard sometimes.

What if we simply cut slits in some loose shirts, then you could tie them up at the bottom once they were over your wings? Similar to what I just said, but you could tie up the loose material to keep it from moving unnecessarily. I don't know if my mending skills could get anything fashionable done, but I'd gladly help pitch in for a proper seamstress?

You deserve to wear nice things and feel happy, after all. Whether you're having a good day or a bad one, you should have the choice of feeling comfortable either way! Will me helping out with a little clothes modification do for a belated Firialia present?

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un: CFHS | it is time to get emotional, probably

OH BOY EMOTIONS LET'S DO IT

cracks my little knuckles and goes for the jugular

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