Well, that I'm actually not very good at being normal, not anymore.
[She smiles at him, though, and it's soft, and it's warm.]
What I mean is...I've been trying really hard to figure out what to do with myself, if I'm not Reimi the ghost girl anymore. So, I did what was natural, right? I tried to be Reimi the girl, the one who I was before I was a ghost. And that's okay! But I think...it feels, a little bit, like I'm playing pretend. It's me, but it doesn't quite...fit anymore, I guess?
So then I started thinking about, what does feel like me. When do I feel like myself. And I thought, I feel like myself when I'm with my friends, and when we have memories that we both share. And I feel like myself when I'm helping someone.
So I think that's what I want to try next. Not give up on any of the things I'm already doing, but...I want to do something permanent. Something that'll last. So there'll be a place for memories. Does that sound silly?
It's a good thing to figure out. I mean... I'm not sure I ever really knew what normal was, and it definitely got away from me when Bruno had me join his gang.
Anyway. It's not silly. Everyone wants to make their mark, make good memories. I think... our circumstances really made us realize the things we've lost out on. We can't go back, and we can't get rid of what happened to us either.
[But they can at least try to move forward, despite the anchors at their heels.]
I want a place where Moody Blues can go and have plenty of things to play back and smile at. I think he'd like that, don't you?
[She reaches up a little idly, fishing for his hand and catching it in hers so that she can play with it, moving their clasped hands around in circles in midair.]
I think I want to do something for the cats. Not just find them homes, but...maybe something like an animal shelter. Be a home, sort of, instead of just trying to find them ones.
Josuke says they have cafes that have cats. Not just one cat, but like...a lot of them, so you can play with them while you spend time there. A cat cafe.
[She gives his fingers a little squeeze.]
It reminded me of when I let you borrow the black one for a night to keep you company. Maybe people would come to the cafe when they needed cat company. Do you think?
Yeah...I've been kind of looking into it, a little bit. There's some paperwork stuff I'll have to do. Pay a fee, get approved for a license. Find a space. I didn't really look into it, just asked a few people some questions.
[She chews the corner of her lip, regarding him quizzically.]
I guess I'd have to have food and stuff too, right? There's a lot of stuff to think about...
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[She smiles at him, though, and it's soft, and it's warm.]
What I mean is...I've been trying really hard to figure out what to do with myself, if I'm not Reimi the ghost girl anymore. So, I did what was natural, right? I tried to be Reimi the girl, the one who I was before I was a ghost. And that's okay! But I think...it feels, a little bit, like I'm playing pretend. It's me, but it doesn't quite...fit anymore, I guess?
So then I started thinking about, what does feel like me. When do I feel like myself. And I thought, I feel like myself when I'm with my friends, and when we have memories that we both share. And I feel like myself when I'm helping someone.
So I think that's what I want to try next. Not give up on any of the things I'm already doing, but...I want to do something permanent. Something that'll last. So there'll be a place for memories. Does that sound silly?
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Anyway. It's not silly. Everyone wants to make their mark, make good memories. I think... our circumstances really made us realize the things we've lost out on. We can't go back, and we can't get rid of what happened to us either.
[But they can at least try to move forward, despite the anchors at their heels.]
Do you know what you want to do yet?
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[She reaches up a little idly, fishing for his hand and catching it in hers so that she can play with it, moving their clasped hands around in circles in midair.]
I think I want to do something for the cats. Not just find them homes, but...maybe something like an animal shelter. Be a home, sort of, instead of just trying to find them ones.
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[He lets her take his hand. Really, he lets her do most anything, save for put herself into danger.]
Hm. Okay. So some kind of animal shelter. But not exactly? What else would you want out of that?
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[She gives his fingers a little squeeze.]
It reminded me of when I let you borrow the black one for a night to keep you company. Maybe people would come to the cafe when they needed cat company. Do you think?
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[Holy shit? Holy shit. That's an amazing idea.]
I think that's a good idea. It's gonna take a lot to make it work, but I think it'd be a good memory for a lot of people.
You should do it.
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[She chews the corner of her lip, regarding him quizzically.]
I guess I'd have to have food and stuff too, right? There's a lot of stuff to think about...
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It's gonna be a lot of work, you know. If it's what you really wanna do. If you're serious about this, you should look for some help.
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Mm. You think I should put out an ad, or something?
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You should start by asking your friends if they wanna help, and fill in whoever you need to from there.