I was trying really hard not to worry about you. I wanted to, but then I said to myself, no, Rohan's twenty-one years old and brave and smart. He'll be okay, he'll figure it out.
Hey...listen. I want you to know something, okay? Maybe it's just sentimental, but...
A few months ago, when it was Cordis and I told you the story of what happened that night at my house? I...left something out. There's one thing I remember that I didn't tell you. I said something to you, as I was pushing you out through the window.
If...that's enough, then good, and I'm glad that now you know. I won't make you listen to me say what it was. But if you want to hear it again, I'll tell you.
Then you know why I didn't tell you before, right? Because...things were different then. I didn't want you to feel pressured by it, or anything. Especially since I was just finding out that you didn't remember it yourself.
[ oh, even though he thought maybe this was what she was going to say... and he has to take a little to take in every single word again and again. he reads her messages. why does he feel like she just gifted him something? in a way, at least. it means a lot to him. so much to him. ]
That's good to know.
[ That's the best he can come up with. Rohan's never used those words for anyone, at least not in his memories. ]
Thanks. I know I don't remember, but I'm sure it meant a lot to me then. And now.
You know...the cafe's been doing pretty well, since we opened. I'm starting to think that maybe sometime soon, I should get a nicer apartment. What do you think about that?
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The party wasn't the gift, by the way.
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Ha...you really weren't holding anything back, huh?
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If I'm going to throw your birthday party for the first time in many years it's going to be the best I can.
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It was, you know. The best.
That really was the best birthday I've ever had.
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[ Nevermind that he's never planned parties before this. ]
But I am happy it was to you, regardless. I didn't want to forget to give you this, and almost did.
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You know...
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I was trying really hard not to worry about you. I wanted to, but then I said to myself, no, Rohan's twenty-one years old and brave and smart. He'll be okay, he'll figure it out.
And you did! So see? I was right.
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I know it's a hard habit to break, but you don't have to worry about me.
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It's just because you're more important to me than anyone. It's natural to worry about your most important person, right?
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that's...how it is, huh?
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Oh. Yeah.
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A few months ago, when it was Cordis and I told you the story of what happened that night at my house? I...left something out. There's one thing I remember that I didn't tell you. I said something to you, as I was pushing you out through the window.
If...that's enough, then good, and I'm glad that now you know. I won't make you listen to me say what it was. But if you want to hear it again, I'll tell you.
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Then you know why I didn't tell you before, right? Because...things were different then. I didn't want you to feel pressured by it, or anything. Especially since I was just finding out that you didn't remember it yourself.
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Well, things are different now than they have ever been. Even I can see that, Reimi.
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"I love you". That's what I said. You were so little, and I was so scared, and I wanted you to know.
But now...
Now I want you to know that if I ever say that to you again, it won't be because I'm scared, and it won't be a little boy that I'm saying it to.
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That's good to know.
[ That's the best he can come up with. Rohan's never used those words for anyone, at least not in his memories. ]
Thanks. I know I don't remember, but I'm sure it meant a lot to me then. And now.
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...I still have to give you my gift, Reimi.
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Do you want to come over?
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I'll be right over, if that's alright.
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You know...the cafe's been doing pretty well, since we opened. I'm starting to think that maybe sometime soon, I should get a nicer apartment. What do you think about that?
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Good. And...I guess it depends on where. A nicer place is a perfect reward for some success, after all. Where were you thinking of moving to?
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